Short Memory

ok here's the deal- my life has been filled with sorrow-murder,suicide and death by overdose- thankfully none of my immediate loved ones but never the less people I know.How do these things happen? So many unanswered questions, so much sorrow, i feel so deeply for my friend Gina whose husband hung himself. Why did he do this? There are clues but no reason for leaving his family. I wish i had a short memory